I wrote this song as a prayer. I was so tired of platitudes, blame, excuses, people just generally doing anything and everything they could to avoid acknowledging that pain has a rightful place in the human experience. This was more than a decade before anyone had used the words “false positivity” and there were no voices in my corner at the time. It felt as if I was standing against the world if only to have the right to say “this hurts.”

Maybe this is sunshine
Maybe it’s not rain
But it’s falling
It’s falling
It’s falling
It’s falling here

Maybe it’s not over
Maybe it’s just starting
But I’m overcome
And over-run
And over starting over here

Mmmmm

Maybe I can make it
If I just believe
But I’ve seen before
I’ll see again
I’ve seen the start
I’ve seen the end

Maybe it’s not dismal
Maybe this is peace
But free me from it
Someone
Cause I’m dying to see
Something better

Mmmmm

I’m not afraid of the water
Afraid of the strain
I’m just tired of walking in it

I wouldn’t grope for the sunlight
If I didn’t still believe
That you’ve got to be
Something better

Can I say your name again
Can I still remember it
Will you be upset
If I try
And get it wrong

I’ve heard it’s a single word
I’ve heard it’s a novel, but
I don’t know if names
Should be so simple
Or so long

Can’t I just say, “help me
I’m among the powerless”?
Groping for an answer
To the questions
i can’t ask
Anymore

Try not to be a hypocrite
If I can handle it
But sometimes I don’t know
What I should think
Anymore

Mmmmm

I’m not afraid of the water
Afraid of the strain
I’m just tired of walking in it

I wouldn’t grope for the sunlight
If I didn’t still believe
That you’ve got to be
Something better

I’m not afraid of the water
Afraid of the strain
I’m just tired of walking in it

I wouldn’t grope for the sunlight
If I didn’t still believe
That you’ve got to be
Something better

Maybe this is sunshine
Maybe it’s not rain
But it’s falling
It’s falling
It’s falling
It’s falling here